I love when cats sit like a loaf of bread
MISOGYNISTIC MEN ALL OVER MY FB
Responding to my posts. One literally said women being afraid of men on the street is bigotry like
Someone say feminist things to make me feel better
meyouanddoom asked: How are you ;)
life is throwing me some really intense curveballs but i’m trying to focus on my zine and figure things out calmly. lost my job recently and might lose where i live too (not something i did), so i’m panicking a little and need to figure out how to get some $$ security
I just washed the bandana that I use to clean and condition mine and adam’s leather stuff aaaaand it was the grossest thing ever. Cleaning and conditioning leather is like a weird tic I developed to keep my hands busy and trick my mind into thinking I’m actually doing something so I don’t feel guilty for not drawing….
Buuut our boots and my jacket always look great? I need some motivation ugh I told myself I would work on the zine while adam was working but I have just been watching parks n rec……… baaaaaaaaaaaaah
lunostar asked: I tried looking online but all I came up with was some fort of forum for people who like to shag bareback in the twincities. What sort of place can I hit up to find zines? It's outside of my sphere of knowledge sadly.
oh! like, extreme noise has them, hard times cafe has them, treehouse records has them, you can usually find zines at comic shops as well, there are others but i’m spacing right now. i’m gonna answer this publicly in case other people don’t know or want to add.
this is an xpost from facebook about the zine i’m working on
if you happen upon this in a mpls related tag and aren’t my facebook friend, gooooooo add me @ facebook.com/missfetus. if you still want a copy of this zine and aren’t in minnesota, also holla, since there’s going to be a huge online portion of this community it’s not going to be MN SPECIFIC, just Minneapolis based.
if you are already my facebook friend and have read this, please track the tag #MPLSLUT on here, though i WILL cross post everything.
I am finally mentally stable enough to resume the project I had started before I hit rock bottom and had to be institutionalized. So, with a clear mind, today I resume MPLSLUT.
Creative girls, girls who support girls, girls looking to end misogyny within each other and in general and create a supportive and productive girl gang, pls enquire w a message. The aim of this project is to create an online safe space for girls, women (also including people who are genderfluid, queer, trans*, etc. If you identify as a girl even 1% of the time, I want you)in the area which will hopefully trickle into an actual physical community with meetings, events, a zine, and other projects. You are not obligated to do anything as a member besides genuinely wanting to be emotionally supportive to other girls in the community.
I want to distribute free literature, patches, vinyl stickers, etc with our logo so I will be doing fundraisers via art selling/benefit shows in order to be able to distribute everything I make for free.
The first issue of the zine will contain only my content explaining in depth the problems I want to address within the community, but afterwards will be released 4x a year with submissions.
Said first issue will be trickled through tumblr and here as a free .pdf and free physical copies will be dispersed in mpls places that you would usually find zines at.
IF THIS INTERESTS YOU, OR YOU WANT TO BE INVOLVED OR HELP IN ANY WAY, PLEASE CONTACT ME. IF YOU HAVE A FRIEND WHO IS “REALLY INTO THIS STUFF,” NEEDS A COUPLE GIRL FRIENDS, YEARNS FOR A SLEEPOVER, NEEDS A SAFE VENUE, TELL THEM TO ADD ME, SHARE THIS STATUS, GIVE THEM MY NUMBER.
*if you create artwork, write, make jewelry, are in a band, produce anything at all, I want to catalogue these girl made creations and give you exposure. If you are willing to play a benefit show or want your at included in a fundraiser show, please contact me as well, though the first issue and all runs of it will come from my pocket entirely and this is more for the future, still send me a message.
Once I’ve gathered my thoughts I will set a hard deadline for its release date. Thanks for reading
cerulean-tmp asked: Wow, reading what you said about how doctors and cops treated you... God that makes me so angry. Nobody understands mental illness and it makes me worse when I try to explain it and they still don't get it. My medication helps but it doesn't get rid of the problems. I hope your road to recovery won't be too difficult. My cousin died of heroin overdose and the word has scared me ever since. I may be a stranger but I am always open to talk. I hope your knees heal soon, too.
that picture was taken in the summertime, i’ve since been to rehab and they healed fine :) there are scars, but i have scars and stupid tattoos everywhere. i have scars on my knees from before that even happened too. imagine my surprise getting on the internet for the first time in months (was in the psych ward inpatient before rehab) to see all the notes and captions people had added to it.
the stigma against addiction and mental illness is something i want to change and i want my work to reflect that and focus around explaining aspects of mental illness and addiction that are not romanticized, treated like tragedies, etc.
my dr now is an incredible person, as is the dr who initially sent me to the psych ward against my will and invariably saved my life. i sent him a facebook message when i got out of rehab and he responded to me with some encouraging words. both him and my most recent psychiatrist are amazing people and they truly have intervened in my life in a way no other person in the mental health system could even come close to. but it’s hard to find good doctors. it took 13 ambulance rides, took me being one of medica’s most “high risk” clients, for those services and those drs to become available. the cost of an ambulance ride and treating a heroin overdose is so ridiculously expensive, medica kind of figured anything else i wanted would be cheaper and so i have a medica representative who acts as almost a case worker for me to make sure i’m satisfied with ALL of my health providers, both physical and mental and will do anything for me if i feel the fit isn’t right. she will search through every fucking dr in the city to find someone to match me, and for her i am so thankful.
but again, the reason i’m being treated that way now is because it’s about money to them. everyone is baffled i overdosed so many times and was able to still live. 13 times is merely how many times i was hospitalized for it it doesn’t count how many times i have been woken up by others around me shooting me with suboxone (PSA, this works), doing chest compressions to get me to breathe or whatever, i honestly don’t know how many times i’ve overdosed. this is appalling and disgusting to many people, and because of this outrageous record number of death defeats, i am finally treated like someone who really needs help, but i needed it to begin with, and i was asking for it and not getting it.
it’s hard to get drs, it’s hard to get therapists, it’s frustrating, and there aren’t a lot of people who genuinely care that are in the system about you. if you want to pm me you can tell me what you are diagnosed with and we can talk in private about mental health stuff. i myself am borderline, major depression, gad/sa and will tell you my Rx in private but i spent time in a psychiatric unit and when the staff needed a break from everyone else they would always come talk to me so i learned a lot about different disorders and the medications that are used both from the staff and other patients. i was there almost 3x as long as the average stay.
hey, i’ve been getting a lot of support messages lately. thanks guys. a boy (actually he’s a man but) convinced me to draw again, so i’m gonna do that with him once a week. i promise art for you guys, cuz i know most of my followers are here for that besides the few that share my fashion interests. he’s gonna make sure i do it though, it’s gonna be different this time. it felt good to get all that shit out there. i wrote a book in rehab and finished the script for my comic. i WILL do something with my life.