alright i had an idea for a series of illustrations, but the way i wanted to execute them have changed a lot in my head. this is an incarnate of one of them, that took me a lot of time because like every single step of the way i hated it. i’m finally just going to call it quits, scrap and rework the idea.
i’m doing a series of prints very loosely based off of this, this is 1/4…. this is more of a sketch, or concept work for them, though. i haven’t uploaded any art in a long time, and i feel like my tumblr is dying and barren, so i guess you guys can have this even though i fucking hate it passionately.
i’m gonna work on the real prints soon. isn’t it just so frustrating when you have an idea you can’t really hash out though? i’ve been having such bad issues with that lately, and everyone in my life is basically constantly telling me how i need to draw more and make more, marketable art. “having art block” isn’t a good enough answer for them, and it’s really frustrating to deal with because people who don’t draw don’t understand how much of yourself you put into it and how hard it is to just do on command, and how much you don’t believe in yourself. the amount of pressure i get to draw makes me not want to do it, like, ever. i’m trying to work past it, though, and i think part of that is letting this illustration go and leaving it in the unfinished state it is, and starting over with the idea.
ugh i can’t even look at this anymore